Every school morning can be quite an emotional struggle for my little boy and with it being a half term its always a harder one to go back. MacKenzie has had all his visual preps and had fully understood when he was going back to school, but Monday morning as soon as he awoke the upset began. Begging not to go, crying and saying he was poorly. Even though his speech is really good now people don’t understand that he doesn’t take in some of the information you verbally give him. When it comes to talking about feelings and emotions he just doesn’t relate, therefore it makes it so much harder to go through things with him like other parents will do naturally.
I felt like my insides had broken into a million pieces on Monday morning but i knew i had to send him to school no matter how upset he was. A few days ago when MacKenzie knew that going back to school was not too far away, i started trying to encourage him by asking him if he wanted me to print a map of where we had been on holiday (he likes maps and fact based things) to show his teacher or class mates…..but no. I cant even get him to relate to that he will see his friends or even if he has missed them, sometimes children want to go back to school to see their friends if they haven’t seen them over the holidays.
I am very aware that all children at some point go through the stage where they don’t want to go to school and they all `try it on` with their parents feelings but this has been ongoing since day one. The only problem we come up against is that that school report he is a happy child there (which don’t get me wrong is great to here) so then it looks like he is playing us. I do believe he is very good at hiding his problems and anxieties especially in structure environments and this can end up being a much larger problem. Also from a selfish point of view it leaves us with no help on this matter as nobody else sees it.
I would love to hear from people who can relate to this, because feeling alone and dealing with your child is really very hard. I found hope and strength thorough reading and realising that i am not on my own, there are too others out there with the same problems.